Why? Oh, well I had quite a few reasons - but all selfish. Its so hard for me to say goodbye - and when I went back to Santiago on the bus everyone went to say goodbye - and ugh, it hurt. Now I was being invited to deepen those relationships just to leave in a few short months... seems like torture! Well, I took my hurting and confused heart and gave it to the Lord. "God, I don't know why - but if you want me there, I am willing to follow, even though I don't understand." So, here I am. Falling more in love with Chileans here in the south and wondering what God has for me in this time. I try to remind myself daily to open my heart and give freely, not guarding or putting up a wall to protect myself. I am at a cross-roads in my life. Where would God have me go? Come back here to Lautaro (it seems as if everyday someone says to come back) or on to other places. Please join me in praying that God will give clear direction on where He wants me to go.
